dhuit! When you have two kids two dogs two pups and a husband. But also work full time, and trying to take care of a small business. You may lose your mind a bit. Or just tired. Like all of the time lmao
That is where I'm finding myself. I'm tired, but I know it's all worth it, and I know it will all be worth it in the end when goals are met and everyone can be happy with our own spaces.
You see right now we live in a very small two bedroom place just trying to survive. Both of us work so hard. We're gone maybe 12 hours out of the day. And come home to a very cramped space.
It gets hard. Hard to do whatever spell work I want to do, hard to meditate cause I mean. Where? Hard to make things in peace or not in someone's way. But life isn't easy right ? It's a constant struggle. But they say nothing great comes easy. And that's how I'm looking at it. The life my kids, pets and my husband and I deserve won't come easy, but I'll be damned if I don't do everything in my power to make it happen.
Right now in my little small business I'm preparing for a huge upcoming event. This event could possibly turn an amazing corner for me and my little business. I couldn't be anymore nervous about it as I am now. And it's still a couple months away, but it's also taking me that couple months to fully be prepared and have everything absolutely ready to go. I'm a preparer and a detailer. I guess it's part of my little ocd I have. Type something personality I can't remember lol.
It's hard and so much money spent already just preparing, shoot at this point I hope I just break even. Even though I'm hoping for the absolute best.
I'm not one to be able to close my eyes and be able to meditate, my thoughts are insane. But I can light a candle and stare into the flame. That helps. I'm not sure whoever decides to read this if.you have the same struggle, but incase you do. There's a little tip for you. Tonight after all of the hussle bussle of my day, when the kids are finally asleep thats what I'm going to do. I'm going to light my candle and meditate that way and also get my lovely cards out, because well why not.
As for now, time to get going.
Yours truly, Daughter of Brigid
( just a little something I worked on for the event